Halo semua,
liburan yang selama ini aku awali dengan 'mbangkong' udah abis.
yaps, besok aktivitas kuliah di semester 5 uda dimulai lagi.
parah ni, rasanya masi ga rela. kurang puas ama liburannya.
Padahal beberapa kali liburan semester genap sukses bikin aku bosan,
sampe pingin buruan masuk kuliah lagi.
Tapi kali ini belum sempet ngerasain bosan. Eh, uda abis aja liburnya.
Yahh mau gimana lagi,
kalo di laci meja gua ada mesin waktunya doraemon mungkin
gua uda skip sampe liburan semester depan
ato kalo engga ngulang liburan kemaren.

anw, semester ini sukses menghapus weekend dari kehidupanku lagi.
jadwal kuliah penuh dari senin sampe sabtu. oh, man!
dan yang ada dipikiranku saat ini adalah kapan waktu kerja tugasnya.
biasanya dalam satu minggu aku masi dapet 1 hari libur,
jadi semua tugas bakal dikebut pas hari libur itu.
nah sekarang, boro-boro jalan ama temen pas weekend.
waktu kerjain tugas aja ga ada =="

semoga Rendy kuat jalani semester ini dengan penuh ketabahan.

Yesterday, my friend told me about what he feels so far.
He said that people only judge him from the physical.
He feels likes everyone look at him when he walks.
I jokes with him "Yeah, of course everybody looks at you! because you are good looking. hahaha"
and how surprised I am when he told me that "No, everyone look at me because I am  weird"

I don't know where's the weird part from him.
so far, I know him as a kind and nice boy.
and he asked my opinion about him.
yaa, I told that he is a good boy.
 then he asked my opinion about his physical appearance.
I was silent for a moment and began to think
why he wanted me to appreciate him from physic?
I still don't understand,
so far I think that the people who judge someone just from the physical
it was a very fool person.
I just said that he is good looking 'in my opinion'

I do not know why he think that way.
I think he got a lot of negative comments / mock from his friends
and it makes negative thoughts about themselves.
I think that's not good for him because he will always feel insecure and felt weird.

I try to explain my opinion to him.
I just hope that he got something and stop to think like that.
"What people say about you,
if it was positive comments, you can take it.
if it was negative comments but it can build up your personality , you can take it. 
if it was negative comments and there is no point for you, ignore it.
this is your life, who are they?
and if there's person who always judging person from the physical, they are stupid.
why? because how beautiful or how handsome person,
one time, their physic will change, and the change was definitely not into a better direction."

In fact,
I also judge people from the physical.
But I'm sure,  for me inner beatty is more important than outward appearance.

I hope that he can start to love and respect himself.
You are who you think you are,
not what they say,
not what they see,
not whay they hear,
and not what they think :)

Whoaaa, it's really suprising me.
yesterday, my classmate told me about the final score for 4th semester.
My IP unexpectedly up by 0.01!

hey, why you looks so happy, it was only 0.01 ?

K, let me re-explain.
for you who often read or at least have read this blog
surely you remember for several times I was almost desperate with this semester.
many subjects that I feel really inconvenience.
I just try to do my best, and hope for the best on it.
but when I passed the final exam, my confidence down.
I've tried to do my best but I still feel that's not my best.
until finally I could only surrender waiting for the results.
sometimes I think that my IP will go down a lot.
I even had a dream just get IP of 2.75 ._.

I pray to God for the best, I pray to make my parents proud of me.
and finally I found myself can still maintain my IP from last semester,
even increased 0.01 haha

If anyone says,
"do your part with your best, and let God take the rest" 
That's right.
God knows how hard we try,
and don't expect a high when you don't try to get it.

so I'm very grateful to God for 3.76 in this semesters
I'll try even harder to fix my flaws
I will try to reach my dreams
see ya!

I recognize myself as an introvert person.
I prefer to keep my problems and try to think about myself.
even though sometimes I need someone as a listener.
I dunno, I just think sometimes people are curious not because of they care about.
they're just curious.

my friend told me that not everyone's like that.
yes, she was right. and I'm thankful I have her, and my other best friend.
at least when I needed a place to talk, I still have them.

okay maybe I was traumatized.
one time I told someone about something that actually I don't want others to know.
I believe him. But he betrayed me.
He told to others, and finally everybody becomes know.
as easy as that he destroyed my trust?
although eventually I forgave him.
yeah, I think it's useless to get angry, because it was already happen.
but now I never tell my problems to him.
I hope he learned to understand the importance of trust.

I made this post, because lately too many people who want to know about me.
and actually it was annoying for me.
please respect my privacy, I'll tell you when I feel it needs to be told.
and one day when I was told to you, please keep that trust.

thank you for trying to understand me :)